so now, we have here, ICU problems that are the main concern of my father's stay. the earlier ordeal caused by the viral infection seems to have stablized. well, i'm not blogging about the cancer today. it spreads right! i mean i sit here, i'll talk about it, give a depressing blogpost and it will be quite a headache to read, chronicalling journey or not.
today i want to awake and say the Lord's mercies are new every morning. and even if we find it so difficult to look upon Him in times of trouble and weakness, we need to remind ourselves that it is us that is weak and that doubts. I thank God for my cell group as they have been an invaluable support in prayer and encouragement through this time. I also thank the following people : Gerry Reihmers, Michael Hoff, and Peter Henseliet for being so understanding and supportive of my family situation. Indeed, it was a worry of mine at the beginning of this year, whether it would be, a situation where we have to crawl out of. Yet, the past 6 months had strolled by relatively easily, there was quality of life... that which surpassed any we had earlier. Against all odds, business picked up amidst the slump. This, economically, logically, makes no sense as it must be understood our goods rely on quality. I thank God for my father's understanding friends, from all walks of life (really, he said ah beng and i din believe. he was right of course.), our friendly fruit seller included (which reminds me I should go down and buy fruits tomorrow). I really think, if I want to go , or if my dad were to want to leave, I would want this said: life was fully led. because, amidst the hustle and bustle of finding who we are in this mess we call life.. we need to find joy, friends and everything else that lasts so much longer. money can sustain us as far as our happiness can.
that being said, i am not emotional about this situation just yet. Its not denial, but probably a rationalization of all that's happened and a rush to make sure things are right at home. i hope i can remain strong for all my family, mom, aunt, brother as we look onward; i pray my actions direct them to Him who's plans will not fail us. I wont say its easy, but with hope and prayer in my heart I believe it shouldnt be too hard.
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